Day 16: 30 Days of Gratitude

I came across this section about how Jesus “loved us to the end” in the book, Gentle and Lowly, again. It would be bad enough if He had died because of just one person’s iniquity. However, Jesus died for the iniquity of us all (Isaiah 53:6).

“What was it for Christ to swallow down the cumulative twistedness, self-enthronement, natural God hatred, of the elect? What must it have been for the sum total of righteous divine wrath generated not just by one man’s sin but the iniquity of us all to come crashing down on one single soul?”
Dane Ortlund, Gentle and Lowly, (page 200)

I’m not sure that I can grasp the enormity of what Jesus did for me. Moreover, what He did for mankind. I wonder if it may be a mistake to so personalize what He did for me (individually) on the cross. To say that He died for MY sin and that He died for ME, however true that is, seems to minimize what He actually did when He died on the cross. The iniquity of every person who ever lived and ever would live “came crashing down on Him.” And His Holy Father turned away from Him. That is so much more than Him dying for Chris Malone (even though that is part of what happened.)

Somehow, we have romanticized what Jesus did. At least I often do. I know that I have thought and said things like, “If I was the only person who needed a Savior, He would have died for me.” Or, “He saw my face when He died on the cross.” Sure, those things may be true. However, they miss the enormity and the gravity of what Jesus actually did. He DID die for my sin. As God, He DID know He was dying for me, Chris Malone. But it wasn’t that simple.

I have no context for the anguish that He was experiencing in the garden when He asked His Father to “take this cup of suffering away from me.” We know that the weight of the mental stress that He was experiencing caused Him to sweat drops of blood. That was before He actually went through it.

“If He was sweating blood at the thought of God’s abandonment, what was it like to actually go through with it? Would it not have been the withdrawal of God’s love from His heart, not he withdrawal of oxygen from His lungs, that killed Him?”
Dane Ortlund, Gentle and Lowly, (page 200)

Today, I am so grateful that Jesus went through what He went through. Not because I am glad that He suffered. I am grateful for what He did for mankind and that He took on the iniquity of us all. And that He took my iniquity on Himself so that I could become a child of God.

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Gentle and Lowly

This is one of the best books I have EVER read.

In Matthew 11, Jesus describes himself as “gentle and lowly in heart,” longing for his people to find rest in him. This book reflects on his words, diving deep into Bible passages that speak of Christ’s affections for sinners and encouraging believers as they journey, weary and faltering, toward heaven.

Chris Malone

Chris and his family serve as missionaries near Kyiv, Ukraine. Chris and his wife, Mary, have nine children. Five of their children have Down syndrome and four of those are adopted from Ukraine. Their four older children are in various stages of starting college and starting careers.

2 thoughts on “Day 16: 30 Days of Gratitude”

  1. I am enjoying your days of gratitude. I would love to give you a big hug right now. My days are a little different now without Roy, but I am clinging to Jesus. Love you and your family.

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